Being comfortable in my own skin has always been something that I have struggled with. Every time I looked in the mirror, I looked for an imperfection or something that I could change. Every photo I took of myself, I would always find something I didn’t like about it. My jaw line when I smiled, the wrinkles forming near my eyes, my big forehead and the list goes on. Instead of focusing on the positive things that I liked about myself, I feed my mean girl and drowned in negative comments. Don’t get me wrong, that still happens now but once I see something negative, I now try and back it up with something positive about myself.
There is always something that people want to change. Bigger boobs, smaller thighs, no freckles, olive skin, smaller nose. But, do you think that even if you could change everything you wanted about your body, would you still be happy? Or would there always be something else that you would want to do to your body or want to change.
For a long time I wanted a smaller bum. I wanted to feel good about wearing a bikini and not feel the need to hide in shorts. A year after I had Parker my bottom somehow shrunk (may have been from all the sleepless nights and swapping food for caffeine.) So now that my bum was smaller, I would feel good about wearing a bikini, right? Wrong. My bum was smaller but so were my breasts and every time I put on a bikini I felt like a man. I began to think, is the list ever going to end. If I get a boob job, would I then feel confident or is it more about the way I hold and view myself, than the way I actually look in the mirror.
I’ve decided to try and work on not comparing my body and instead nourishing and complimenting all the things that it has achieved. After all, when I am in my final days of this life, am I really going to be thinking about how I should have tried harder to get that amazing physique or still worrying about my frown lines. I think not. Life is all about the uniqueness that you as a person brings to this word. Some of the most beautiful people I know in this world still have flaws, but their kindness, outlook on life and the way they hold themselves is far more beautiful than any perfectly physiqued person.
Beauty should never be restricted to a particular body shape. Beauty should not be looked at as something that we can grasp, it should be viewed as something within. It’s about the way you speak, hold yourself, your warmth and charisma.
It’s important to see the beauty that you withhold and know that you are beautiful, even if you don’t fit the world’s stereotypical sense of beauty, whatever that is!