Easter Ideas

Easter is an occasion that always makes me happier. I mean is there anything cuter than seeing babies and kids dressed up as little bunnies (don’t think so.) Not to mention the chocolate (little solid Easter eggs are the best!)

However since having Parker, Easter is a little less about chocolate and more about small gifts, traditions and spending time together. Trying to think of non chocolate ideas can be a little tricky.  So, I decided to put together a blog full of ideas for your little one this Easter.

Here are my must have Easter picks this year. If you see something that you like simply click on the link and you will be directed straight to their website.

Happy Easter Beauties xx

This is a little basket that I put together just in case my littlest love decides to make an early appearance and also because I love a good basket full of goodies.

Sadie Baby T Bar Shoes – http://www.sadiebaby.com.au

Jamie Kay Cardigan-  http://www.monkeymoo.com.au

Grey Jelly Cat from CMC Gold – http://www.cmcgold.com.au

Baby Noise Wooden Egg Shakers – http://www.babynoise.myshopify.com

Wooden Cat Stacker – http://www.happygoducky.com.au

Some more non chocolate Easter ideas that support small business.

Zilvi Easter Plaque – http://www.zilvi.com.au

Love Tildy Bunny Puzzle – http://www.lovetildy.com.au

Little Pine and Co Bunny Teether – http://www.littlepineandco.com

Indi and Arrow Bunny Bonnet – http://www.indiandarrow.bigcartel.com

Bekaboo Easter Basket – http://www.bekaboo.com.au

Baby Girls Room

Baby Girls Room

There is something so special about creating your babies nursery. It’s a room so special, so meaningful. It signifies new life, will hold some of our deepest memories and see our little one reach each milestone. I look forward to the day that I can hold and comfort you in here, sing you songs and smoother you with kisses. Until then this is a little haven that I sit in and dream about what you will look like, when you will come and just how much you will make our hearts grow.

When I created this space I wanted to make sure that it was functional but also stylish. When it comes to spaces in our home I am notorious for changing my mind, so I also wanted to be able to change the look and colours easily.

Love the subtle blush against all that crisp white.

This little swan is perfection. To me it’s classic and not over powering.

This little bunny is the statement piece on this wall. She is both elegant and bold.

A number of significant pieces sit on this shelf. I purchased that flag when we started throwing the idea around about having another baby and I bought that rattle while trying to conceive. Once we fell pregnant with this little miracle I ordered that feather, which continually reminds me just how blessed we truly are.

That final moment when you complete the babies nursery and just sit in there waiting and wondering about who she is going to be and what she is going to look like.

A gorgeous wall for me to admire while sitting in here feeding.

Prints are a great way to compliment any room and so easy to change or mix around.

I have absolutely loved putting this room together. There are still a few pieces that I would like to add and no doubt I will continue to change things up in here on a regular basis, so make sure you check out my Instagram page for store information and new pieces.

xx

Christmas Must Haves

So Christmas is creeping up on us rather fast and I am beyond excited! Christmas with kids is truly magical as they begin to understand what the season is all about and can anticipate the magic that is, Santa.

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Christmas is by far my most favourite time of the year. I am one of those crazy Christmas lovers that puts their tree up in November and must buy more decorations every year.

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I also can’t help go a little crazy when it comes to buying presents for Parker and I am known to go a little overboard. However, this year I have promised to be responsible when it comes to present buying (whatever that means).

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Christmas for me is also about traditions. I love starting new traditions and for some reason I have so many focused around Christmas. Some of our traditions include looking at Christmas lights, placing a gift under the Kmart wishing tree, new Christmas PJs for the whole family on Christmas Eve, putting out food for Santa and the reindeer’s, watching ‘The Grinch’ on Christmas Eve, making cookies for Santa, Dad putting the star on the top of the tree and really I could go on and on.

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So, I was more than excited to come up with my favourite ‘shop small’ gifts for little ones and mammas this year. It was so much fun scrolling through Instagram looking for items that I knew the little ones would get so much joy out of and that would also in turn support movers, makers and shakers.

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Here are my top Christmas Must Haves for your little one:

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Baby Noise Instruments – www.babynoise.myshopify.com

Raw Threads Shorties – www.rawthreadsforkids.bigcartel.com 

Kookinuts Christmas Tags – https://kookinuts.com.au/

Silent Little Whispers Christmas Prints – https://silent-little-whispers.myshopify.com/

Honey Bee Toys – https://www.honeybeetoys.com.au/

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Harlz and Haven Christmas Bow – http://harlzandhaven.bigcartel.com/

Milton Ashby Personalised Plane – http://www.miltonashby.com.au/

Studio Bowerbird Banner – http://studiobowerbird.net 

Cotton and Thread Christmas Stocking – www.cottonandthread.bigcartel.com

TLeaf Collections Moon Memory Drop – https://www.tleafcollections.com.au/

 

Finding the perfect gift for mum

This can be so hard! There are always a million things I want but when it comes to writing a Christmas wish list, I’m always stuck. So I have found a few items that are perfect for every kind of mamma.

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Fawn and Finch Shoes – https://www.fawnandfinch.com.au/

Write To Me Organiser and Diary – https://writetome.com.au/

Milkies Sauv Candle – https://www.milkiescandleco.com/

Francesca Bracelet – https://www.francesca.com.au/

 

 

My ttc journey

How hard can getting pregnant be? You get an ovulation kit, find out when you ovulate and then have sex. Wallah, you should be pregnant. Right? Wrong! Every month it’s like you are given new hope. You ovulate, you do the deed and then you wait. You wait for what feels like forever, until the day that your period is meant to make its grand entrance. You hope and wish that this month will be the month, but just like every other month your period appears. Now you are left with no hope. It feels like you are right back at the beginning again. You’re on a carousel that you cannot get off.  You are deflated and it doesn’t seem like there is any faith but yet, you try again next month.

As the day your period is due creeps up, you convince yourself that every twinge, cramp or pain is a pregnancy symptom. Ouch my breast as sore (straight to google – “are sore breasts a pregnancy symptom” YES, they are! But so is everything else that could also be the sign of your period coming). Every month I fooled myself into believe that this is it, I’d tell myself to keep guarded, don’t think about it, it will happen. But for anyone who has really wanted a baby and has been trying for a baby for what feels like forever for them (it could be months or years) it’s the hardest thing to do! Because it consumes you.

This is what my pregnancy journey was like. When we started trying to conceive with this little one, I had it in my head that it wouldn’t take too long because my body had already had a baby, so it knew what to do. Hahaha that was so silly.

We tried without any ovulation sticks or temping or timing of any sorts at first and the months went by. So I then started to track my cycle and pee on thousands (exaggeration) of ovulation sticks. I was ovulating but not every month. I had this same problem when ttc with Parker. So I decided to go back to my gynecologist. Drag. He sent me for some blood tests, a pap smear and did an internal ultrasound (so much fun). Everything looked fine, so he decided to start me on Clomid. I was excited for this. New hope. My SIL and friend had, had early success with Clomid and I thought I would be exactly the same. Wrong again.

I started taking Clomid that month. The first fun thing I learnt about Clomid is when you are on it, you have to have two internal ultrasounds a month. For anyone who hasn’t had the pleasure of having one, it’s a little like putting a probe inside you and poking it around, where things shouldn’t be poked. The first internal was to check if I had eggs producing and the second to see if any were ready to drop. On my first round of Clomid one egg dropped and it was go time. Followed closely by my period. Its OK, this is just the first time, I told myself.

So back on the Clomid for another month. Except this month I didn’t ovulate. Why was this happening? Instead of losing all hope when my period came, my hope was lost 12 days in to my cycle. Making it a really long month. That wasn’t the only problem. The side effects were starting to kick in. I couldn’t control my emotions (happy one minute, crazy cat lady the next), I was becoming forgetful (missed numerous lunch duties at work) and I started to have trouble sleeping (this made the crazy cat lady worse).

The Dr then decided to up the dose of Clomid. Back in for that beautiful internal, this time I ovulated and not only had one egg dropped but two! The Dr then proceeded to tell me the complications of having twins and the risks. He also informed me that the eggs could split and I could possibly end up with triplets. He then informed me about early termination. So here I am wishing for a baby and have the possibility of having two and my Dr is telling me that we should skip this month or I could terminate because he doesn’t like the risk factors that come with twins. I left feeling helpless and deflated. I can’t even tell you what I was thinking, because I was at such a lose with the fact that two eggs dropping could have been negative, that I just switched off and felt emotional less.

Once I got home my husband remind me that if this was occurring naturally we wouldn’t be able to decide, so why now! Exactly. However that horrid period showed its face again and I was back on the bathroom floor crying, asking if it was ever going to happen. The following month, I pulled myself up onto the hospital bed with the tiny amount of energy I had left, while once again he gave me an internal ultrasound. I was looking at the machine hoping there was a little egg there waiting to become our next baby and there was two. AGAIN! We tried again that month but yet again I was cruising down the ladies aisle buying tampons.

At my next visit he told me that the Clomid wasn’t working for me and he wanted me to inject myself with a needle at the beginning of every cycle. My head was spinning. Wasn’t it working, eggs were dropping. Had he also lost hope! It all became a little too much. The constant pill taking and the side effects of Clomid, not to mention mentally going to the Dr twice a month every month, only to be faced with a negative result time and time again.

Taking a break was not something I did lightly. I felt I was a failure. That I was giving up when it was starting to get hard and that went against everything I believed in. So my mum encouraged me to go and see my naturopath instead of letting go entirely.

I walked into her room with little faith and pure mental and physical exhaustion. She gave me acupuncture and a few vitamins to take as well as a disgusting drink I referred to as ‘jungle juice.’ I didn’t ovulate that month but I did feel like myself again. The side effects of Clomid had gone away and my cycle was back to normal. When my period returned it was disappointing but not as crushing as the times before. I had new hope.

I went back the next month. Acupuncture again. My naturopath was so full of hope and positive, something I desperately wanted to be. I put my whole faith in her and every morning I told myself to have faith and one day when our baby is ready it will happen. Did this make it easier when my period showed up that month, no. But I figured why immerse myself in negative energy, why not try to embrace the positive.

The next month was different. I have being seeing this naturopath on and off for over 11 years. When my dad was sick with cancer he also went to this naturopath. Over the 11 years I have been, I have never been into the consultation room my dad went into, but on this particular day I did. Normally something like this would throw me into emotional turmoil. Make me crave one last hug from a man I loved so much, followed by endless tears. However on this day it gave me hope. I felt that this was a reminder of just how special and unique life is. How much of a miracle a baby is and that sometimes miracles take a little longer. My naturopath came in and proceeded with the acupuncture. Before she left she told me, you will have a baby soon. So hopeful again. I was left sitting on the table while the needles did there thing, with lots of time to reflect. I left feeling like dad was a little closer, I had a little more faith and a reminder that I needed to treasure all the moments because life is so special.

I was sitting at a table with my family in a restaurant. We were waiting for my brother before we ordered dinner and I was feeling really off. I felt as though I hadn’t eaten all day and was starving to the point that I needed to eat. Straight away my brain was like, OMG could this be it! No don’t be silly, you always have pregnancy symptoms, this is just another one of your google symptoms. My brain was ticking all night. In the morning I decided that I would test, you know just in case. My period wasn’t due until the Monday and it was Saturday. I jumped out of bed and peed on that little white stick. One line appeared. Again! Disappointment hit me again! I washed my face and tied my hair back. I picked up the stick again to throw it in the bin before my dear husband saw it and there was two pink lines! WHAT! No way. I quickly grabbed another one out. Peed on it and waited. Two lines. Another. Two lines. Is this real! I peed on one stick every day for four days, you know just to make sure.

Now 14 weeks pregnant, I still can’t believe that this is actually happening. That this is all real. It’s been a crazy journey for me and believe me I know that people have been through a lot more than me and my heart truly goes out to them. One person is my amazing Aunty who has been through so many rounds of IVF and yet to hold her little miracle.

If you are ttc please never hesitate to talk about it, I believe it’s something that women feel they should endure on their own and this is not the case. Hold on to faith and hope and know that I am sending all the baby dust your way!

xx

 

How to make mum crack in 8 easy steps

Here are eight easy steps, that are a sure fire way to crack this mamma.

  1. Never put anything back after you have played with it. Just walk away and go pull out another 100 toys in a different room.
  2. Cry about getting changed every. single. night. like it’s your damn right job. Even though every night in some form or another you actually go to bed in pyjamas.
  3. Refuse any meal that mum has made. Act like it is complete and utter poison. Instead request plain pasta or a tub of cottage cheese, like your some sort of dictating rock star.
  4. When you feel as though mum is feeling generous and has offered you treat ie. an ice cream.  As soon as the treat is finished beg and cry for another like she didn’t just see you inhale that ice cream in one breath.
  5. Whenever mum is in a hurry, get distracted by anything and everything and slow down to snail pace, then spill food all over your clothes or just simply poop!
  6. When its bed time, get out of bed at least eight times and pretend you have every symptom under the sun, feel sick, need another cuddle, cold, thirsty, want to dance. Any excuse will do!
  7. Do your best to milk mum for anything and everything when on a holiday. After all, all she wants to do is relax and enjoy herself, so one little whinge and you can pretty much have it.
  8. Make sure you give mum a random kiss on the cheek or tell her you love her, so that magically she forgets everything you have done that day to break her sanity. and allows you to stay another day. 

My envision of motherhood vs reality

Before Parker was born, I envisioned motherhood to look like me wearing yoga pants and a Lorna Jane tank, while playing Mozart to my boy as we sipped on organic kale and orange smoothies. You know, our days filled with daises, slow mornings and endless cuddles. I must have watched one too many Disney movies as this was so far from reality!

The beginning of my journey to motherhood was harder than expected. It started out with me becoming some sort of a non stop feeding machine that was open whenever for as long as ever. Then there was witching hour (or hours) no one had ever mentioned the fact that as soon as 5pm hit, your baby turns into some sort of crazy character from the Exorcist. I also thought that babies slept through at some stage (still waiting for this amazing stage).  Then teeth hit (pretty sure babies should just be born with teeth – as wrong as that would look). So, I told myself that once Parker was a toddler, he would be independent, more content and I would finally be able to shower in peace while he happily watched cartoons.

However,  I have now realised that toddlers are more like tiny dictators than innocent little cherubs. They have a way with their words or lack thereof and more importantly looks and actions. It’s these actions and words that make us give in and obey, just to be able to finish our meals, enjoy our coffee or jump in the shower.

My day at home with my Parker is a little like a mouse on a running wheel. A run with no end in sight. He still wakes in the middle of the night, is non-stop all day, craving every ounce of my attention and wanting to help with everything, sah cute (until washing the dishes takes an hour and requires both of you needing to change).

Motherhood is definitely not how I envisioned it. For some reason I had a rather delusional view of exactly how motherhood would look and how I would cope. However, I wouldn’t change it for the world. There are days when it seems overwhelming but there are also days when I feel so content. The good always seems to outweighs the bad and hey, once they are in bed and you are watching them sleep, they suddenly become angels that could do no wrong.

So, in between the never ending mounds of laundry, dictating tantrums and meal scoffing, there are also sweet little hugs, cute conversations, quiet moments and pure love. And hey, I want to do it all again, so either I am bat shit crazy or motherhood is worth it (it’s the later by the way).

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Because sometimes babies don’t sleep

Sleep was a constant thought on my mind until Parker turned one. Why isn’t he sleeping? How can I get him to sleep through? And what am I doing wrong? Classic. Before I had Parker, I had read every book about babies. Heck, I had been reading them since I was 18. So I knew exactly what strategies I had to put into place, in order for Parker to sleep through the night. Because, as the books said, it was just a matter of good sleeping habits and a strict routine. But Parker taught me what the books could not.

Ever since I can remember I have always wanted to be a mum. I dreamed about it. Anytime there was a baby at a party or family gathering, you could bet I would be right there beside it. Everyone said I was a natural when it came to babies and would make a beautiful mother.  So the day Parker was born, I was feeling confident, calm and happy. I had this. I was prepared.

I can still to this day remember when Parker was only 6 days old, crying non-stop, feeding every hour and there was nothing I could do to comfort him. How wrong all those people were. I had no idea. Here I was in the middle of the night, holding my own little baby and I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t even get him to stop crying, let alone sleep.

My confident, happy facade masked a frightened, emotional mess. I thought I was going to be a good mum. I read all the books and I had all the gadgets ever invented. Because having all the ‘knowledge’ mattered. The only thing was, I didn’t bring home a text book baby. I brought home a real baby.

Parker’s longest sleep was 3 hours until he was six months old. No matter what strategies I put in place, no matter how many routines, noises, lights etc we introduced, he just didn’t sleep. My days were foggy and as night grew closer my anxiety would rise. What will he be like tonight? How long will I be pacing the lounge room floor? And what am I doing wrong? Because, it must be me! I must have read all the wrong books. So I started asking for advice and believe me when it comes to your baby sleeping through the night, everyone has advice. Every time I tried a new suggestion and it failed, it only feed into my negative thoughts that I was a hopeless mum! I must be failing motherhood, the one thing in this world I wanted so much.

I started to only focus on his sleeping and not everything else that was happening.  He was kicking milestones here there and everywhere but he wasn’t sleeping. The sleep deprivation was consuming me. I was looking for an answer that wasn’t out there. Because I began to realise that there is no magical way to make your baby sleep through the night. Sure, some routines and sleep habits help some babies, but not all. It might be hard to believe but not all babies sleep through the night. It’s no failure as a mother if your child doesn’t sleep through. Your baby will figure it out in their own time. The funny thing is, that in all my google searching and book reading, I never read that. When it came to reading up on sleep, it was as though you could just routine away their sleeping issues. But I can assure you, for some babies this is not the case. Parker is now two years old and he still wakes up once a night for milk or a cuddle and that’s okay. Because that’s him and I am sure one day I will be missing those early morning cuddles. It wont be forever, just this small moment in time.

So if you baby isn’t sleeping through the night and you find yourself bouncing, rocking and singing to your baby all hours through the night, just remember this is not your moment. Your moment will come and it is okay. Because believe me opinions, books and google will probably tell you otherwise. It’s hard and sometimes it seems like a dark tunnel and no matter what you do, you can’t see the light at the other end, but you will. You can’t fast forward to an easier moment, so just go with the hard and take heart that an easier moment is coming.

And remember some babies don’t sleep.

x x

Easter Must-Haves

Easter is almost here and for me that brings lots of excitement. Not only does it mean that I get to eat lots of chocolate, (chocolate for breakfast-the best) but it also means that we get time off work to spend time together as a family! I love holidays.

Chocolate aside, now that we have Parker to celebrate with, (insert more excitement here) this means I can dress him up in ridiculously cute bunny clothes and continue our Easter traditions. One tradition that we started last year was giving Parker a special ‘shop small’ gift, that he can treasure all year round. It doesn’t cause a crazy sugar rush and your supporting a small business (win, win.)

Here are my favourite picks this year. If you see something you love, simply click on the shop to be directed to their website.

HAPPY EASTER beautiful people.

x x

book

The Day Children’s Book – Beautifully illustrated and written book $24.95

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

bunny-print

Silent Little Whispers – Gorgeous Miss Bunny Print $15.00

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

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Love Tildy – Cute Bunny Puzzle Mate $32.00

Just Ray Baby Shoes – Divine Mork Oxford Shoes $30.00

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

romper

Happy Go Ducky Toys – Beautifully crafted Hobbs wooden mouse $23.00

Edmund and Rose  – Gorgeous grey linen romper $40.00

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

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Studio Bowerbird – Stunning Bunny Banner $12.00

Little Wishes Boutique – Exquisite White Boho Bib $18.00

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

bunny-tag

Kasoobi – Beautiful Personalized Easter Tag $9.00

Jelly Cat – Grey Bunny $35.00

Other product details can be found @onemums_style

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life & Grief

I believe I now have a deeper understanding and appreciation for life. A wisdom that comes from knowing another world that is so foreign to some. A strength and endurance I can only attribute to my supportive husband, family and friends. The ability to admit that, I cannot do this life on my own. Just before my eighteenth birthday I lost my dad to cancer. The world that I knew was gone forever. I had my life mapped out and this was not part of my plan. The grief that came with my dad’s passing was at times unbearable. An unimaginable pain and longing for someone, I could no longer see. I suddenly missed and treasured all the little things, like hearing him say my name, his hugs and his ability to make anyone laugh.

Grief can make you feel completely empty. You have so many emotions going through your mind at one time but your still so empty. It makes you look at life in a completely different light. For me, I can now see the beauty in simplicity. Like the feeling of rain touching your skin or the way the wind feels as it brushes past your face. I now have gratitude for the little things, like the way a smile can make you feel or how hearing someone laugh can fill up your whole heart. When I looked back now, my grief has been a wisdom.

Even though it has been one of the most excruciating and crippling experiences I will ever have, it has been a time of growth. I have watched myself fall to pieces, watched grief take a hold of me and felt salty water fall down from my eyes far too often. Grief made me raw.  More raw than I could have ever imagined, but now that I am making my way to the other side of this soul wrenching grief, I have gained wisdom from it. I have empathy unlike before. In some ways there is a silver lining to grief. Someday you will mend, just enough. Through the sadness, tears and deafening silence of their absence, this grief is shaping you into a person that you weren’t before. Embrace it and learn from its wisdom.

Time is precious and the problem is we think we have time. Smile at a stranger, compliment a friend and seek comfort in the little things in life.

As my dad said, live well, laugh often and love much.

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Room Reveal

I have finally finished Parker’s room (two years later, but yay).

When I started creating Parker’s room, I knew I wanted something modern but classic, with a Scandinavian feel. White, grey and wood was the colour palette.

I absolutely love wooden toys and kids décor. So, with that being said you will see a lot of amazing wooden items in Parker’s room. I tried to use predominately small businesses that I have found through Instagram. It’s all about supporting the movers, makers and shakers. I have listed the businesses that feature in Parker’s room below.

No doubt Parkers room will continue to have little pieces added to it and I will continue to reshuffle, so make sure you check out my life in squares @onemums_style.

 

 

 

Canopy – adairs.com.au

Mountains – @livvy.and.ri

Maracas – @_lovetildy_

Playmat- @jhettandco

Floor Cushion – @bimpleandbopp

Name Plaque – @kasoobi

Clothes Rack – @hope_and_jade

Name Blocks – @arlo.gold

Blanket – @cocoandcru

Mobile – @arlo.gold

Flat Bed Fred Wooden Truck – @_lovetildy_

Book Bag – @smallprintdesign

 

Prints

@toucan_

@jemcreative

@emilieslittlelamb